Hey guys!! So as I was getting ready this morning I was thinking about a conversation Andrew and I were having last night, it was about how some Christians act and respond when they don't like something someone does and I feel like someone somewhere needs to hear this on either side of the spectrum.... So you see someone doing something you don't like or hear about it? Well a lot of Christians (Here I will be using the term as "people who have accepted Jesus into there hearts") will respond very poorly, and I have been on the receiving end of this even being a Christian myself (yeah it happens between Christians of the exact same denomination too!!), I have had people judging me for my outfits, my music, you name it and you guys have seen my outfits in some posts, nothing at all bad, pretty modest by today's standards actually, but I have still had people go so far as to tell me I am clearly not a Christian because of it. Reasons like we aren't suppos...

Hey everyone! So this will be one of those rambley post with no exact clear point other than updating you about my anxiety, so if you are interested in that read on, if not, I'll try and get back to makeup on the next post... So as any long time readers may know, I don't talk about this much, but I do have a couple blog post addressing it and in those I like to try and be real with you guys about how I feel at the moment and what's been going on. My last one was about a year ago, it is  Anxiety: 2 steps forward, 1 step back  , and the first from almost 2 years ago is simply,  Anxiety Sucks  . I haven't felt the need to update these recently probably because nothing was really all that new. Nothing is per say new now, except I am trying to phase out most of my caffeine because it is making my anxiety worse at the moment. I would say overall I am on a upswing and things are going ok, I have a new job, which funny enough involves me driving alot and if you read...

Hey guys!! So for todays post I thought I would try and do more of an advice/encouragement post. Now as most of you know, or if you are new you may not, I am a Christian so this is going to very much be based off that, however even if you aren't I am hoping it could still be helpful. So recently someone I know had been praying about something they wanted for months, a very specific thing, and they recently found out, it isn't going to happen, at least not right now. So that got me thinking about all the times I did that and how I felt. Over the last few years really I have been learning to pray about things, but not just pray for what I want, to pray for what GOD wants. Now this person knew that and was doing that, but the hard part about that is being able to accept God's decision isn't always what YOU wanted. It is very hard to trust his decisions when you wanted something so much and he says no or wait. Even recently I myself am really w...

Let me start off by saying by no means do you HAVE to be friends first to have an amazing relationship,  however this is from my personal experience and I wouldn't have it any other way in my case. I love that I began as friends with my fiance when we were younger because I feel like being friends first creates a really strong base for your relationship,  my fiance knows things about me that make a world of difference in how he responds to me. In various situations if we hadn't been friends before he wouldn't understand how I was reacting to things. With my anxiety for example,  he's learned much more through our 4.5 years together but he knew a good amount beforehand as well. One example is how I used to eat in the kitchen at our church because all the people stressed me out. Sometimes he'd even bring me food so I wouldn't have to go get it. Because of seeing that and experiencing that in our friendship he knew recently exactly what w...

Hey guys!! With the new year this is when a lot of people decide to start working out or to restart working out. I need to do this as well so I thought I would share workouts I enjoy with you. As you may be able to tell I like variety, I get bored super easy and am always looking for a new dvd, game, or activity to keep me interested, the longest I have stayed interested in one workout is probably a little under 3 months, then I tend to quit if I don't find a new one 1. Island Girl DVD'S These are a favorite of mine. It is basically really fast paced hula and it is super fun. It involves lots of hips motion and is super quick. The workout itself it like an hour long, but it is fun enough it isn't too bad. It is good for weight loss and toning, and will definitely make you sore using these new muscles if you don't usually do these motions. 2. Leslie Sansone Walking DVD'S Now I know what you are thinking, these are for old people, yeah kinda, b...

1. Makeup and Beauty Products Basically anything beauty and makeup related. I am ecstatic to get anything like this from my fiancé (or anyone really lol). If there is something you know she has been wanting then this would be an awesome gift. And she'll love you for it. 2. Hair Tools and Products Going along with  the same idea you could get her things to use to style her hair. My fiancé got me a curling iron last year and I absolutely love it. You get also get her things to use in her hair like heat protectant if you get a tool that uses heat or any type of styling item she would like. 3.  Sephora and Ulta Gift Cards Don't know the first thing about makeup and hair stuff? Get her a gift card to one of these places. My fiancé has also done this and I also loved this because I got to go pick out exactly what I wanted to get. 4.  Spa or Massage Gift Cards Why not pamper your girl and get her a relaxing gift like a spa day or a massage? Not ok with ...

As you guys know I don't often talk about personal things here,  but I have talked about my anxiety before.  As of right now,  for the  most part my anxiety is going in a good direction,  it's still there but mostly under control the majority of the time.  That being said I still have many little anxiety ticks if you will.  I do little things like fidgeting a lot when I'm uncomfortable or nervous,  things like messing with my jewelry, scratching at my nail polish amongst other things.  When I'm driving I tend to put my nails into my steering wheel,  resulting in many many marks in my wheel (I'm hopefully getting a steering wheel cover to help this). I used to do this thing where I didn't like eating at parties and get togethers, but I thought I had gotten much better with that though still uncomfortable,  unfortunately that's where my step back comes in, apparently I've only gotten better in situations I k...

Hey guys! I'm doing a post today because I'm gonna be busy all day tomorrow.  I just want to add a disclaimer before I begin, this is just my experiences and is meant to be funny so no one freak out or get mad. Lol Ok so I come from a conservative Christian family. I've always gone to church and was relatively sheltered. Now as I have gotten out into the real world I've realized just how sheltered I was. The things people say and do are utterly shocking to me. What's more shocking is when I tell them things about myself and they think it's crazy how "well behaved" and "sheltered" I am. I want to categorize levels of conservative Christian families into 3 categories.  Level 1: This is where my parents are. You have a decent amount of freedom, can mostly watch, listen to, and do things you'd like. Still has rules and boundaries. They are still very against things like tattoos, drugs, or alcohol. Or wearing anythi...

Hey guys, tonight I thought I'd do a post I've been thinking about for a while now, but wasn't sure exactly what to say, I still wasn't sure, but I decided to just go for it and hope it helps. It's easy to think "oh if I could just lose this weight I'd be happy with my body", but the reality isn't so simple.  This is something I'm still coming to terms with. I've lost about 30 lbs. I know in reality I look much better now, but I still can't get over thinking I'm fat and picking myself apart.  And even knowing this is unfortunately normal,  it still makes me feel pretty crappy.  I feel even worse because I know I shouldn't be complaining,  I remember how when I weighed more I was very irritated with smaller woman complaining they were the weight I am now.  I still have that part of me that thinks I need to lose more weight but logically I know losing much more would be very unhealthy for me to do and very d...

Hey guys!! Today is my birthday and I just turned 21 so I thought I'd share some things I've learned with you. This us probably more helpful if you are younger but if you are older maybe you can add more advice in the comments.  :) 1. Get a job while you're in high school just for the experience. I wish I had done this so I'd have an easier time getting jobs that are better now. Lots of jobs require a year or more experience and that makes getting jobs harder if you've never worked anywhere before. 2. Going along with #1 take the smaller jobs while in high school  This way once you finish college you have tons of experience plus your degree and that will help ALOT. 3. Guard your heart but know it IS possible to meet your future spouse in high school and that those relationships can last. I met my fiancé when we were only 8 and 10 and we slowly became friends and started dating at 15 and 17. He's the most amazing supportive person I know an...

So I decided to do a post a little different tonight, How do you know when you've found the one? I'm certainly not an expert on this and don't have exact answers, but I'm curious on you guys thoughts.  Right now I KNOW I'm with the guy I wanna spend the rest of my life with. I can't imagine being with anyone else and I never want to.  I have honestly never been so in love or cared so deeply about someone. I'm finding the longer I'm with him, the harder it is when he has to leave and go home, like every time he leaves he's taking a tiny piece of me away and it isn't back until I see him again.  You can even ask him,  I get so sad when he has to leave. It's honestly ridiculous,  but I just miss him so much and we can only see each other a couple times a week most if the time.  I honestly can't wait till we can finally be engaged and married so he doesn't have to leave anymore.  And for me, I think that's h...

Hey guys!! I know this is my traditional type of post,  but I really have been having trouble with this lately and I just needed somewhere to vent. Anxiety really really sucks you guys. I've always been the kind of person who will get nervous about new experiences,  I've never liked being in front of people on stage or for presentations.  Even small groups would scare me, but I've never experienced anxiety quite like this.  Ever since December my anxiety has been far worse than its ever been. I was on my way to college one morning like usual, listening to music, singing along and all of a sudden my heart started racing, I was having trouble breathing, my hands were tingling, I got a headache,  and felt dizzy. Against my better judgment I continued to drive to school and after about 30 minutes of class realized I couldn't handle it. I was afraid to try and drive since I was dizzy so I ended up having to call my parents to come pick me up. At the time...