Hey guys, tonight I thought I'd do a post I've been thinking about for a while now, but wasn't sure exactly what to say, I still wasn't sure, but I decided to just go for it and hope it helps. It's easy to think "oh if I could just lose this weight I'd be happy with my body", but the reality isn't so simple.  This is something I'm still coming to terms with. I've lost about 30 lbs. I know in reality I look much better now, but I still can't get over thinking I'm fat and picking myself apart.  And even knowing this is unfortunately normal,  it still makes me feel pretty crappy.  I feel even worse because I know I shouldn't be complaining,  I remember how when I weighed more I was very irritated with smaller woman complaining they were the weight I am now.  I still have that part of me that thinks I need to lose more weight but logically I know losing much more would be very unhealthy for me to do and very d...