Hey everyone! So this will be one of those rambley post with no exact clear point other than updating you about my anxiety, so if you are interested in that read on, if not, I'll try and get back to makeup on the next post... So as any long time readers may know, I don't talk about this much, but I do have a couple blog post addressing it and in those I like to try and be real with you guys about how I feel at the moment and what's been going on. My last one was about a year ago, it is  Anxiety: 2 steps forward, 1 step back  , and the first from almost 2 years ago is simply,  Anxiety Sucks  . I haven't felt the need to update these recently probably because nothing was really all that new. Nothing is per say new now, except I am trying to phase out most of my caffeine because it is making my anxiety worse at the moment. I would say overall I am on a upswing and things are going ok, I have a new job, which funny enough involves me driving alot and if you read...

As you guys know I don't often talk about personal things here,  but I have talked about my anxiety before.  As of right now,  for the  most part my anxiety is going in a good direction,  it's still there but mostly under control the majority of the time.  That being said I still have many little anxiety ticks if you will.  I do little things like fidgeting a lot when I'm uncomfortable or nervous,  things like messing with my jewelry, scratching at my nail polish amongst other things.  When I'm driving I tend to put my nails into my steering wheel,  resulting in many many marks in my wheel (I'm hopefully getting a steering wheel cover to help this). I used to do this thing where I didn't like eating at parties and get togethers, but I thought I had gotten much better with that though still uncomfortable,  unfortunately that's where my step back comes in, apparently I've only gotten better in situations I k...

Hey guys!! I know this is my traditional type of post,  but I really have been having trouble with this lately and I just needed somewhere to vent. Anxiety really really sucks you guys. I've always been the kind of person who will get nervous about new experiences,  I've never liked being in front of people on stage or for presentations.  Even small groups would scare me, but I've never experienced anxiety quite like this.  Ever since December my anxiety has been far worse than its ever been. I was on my way to college one morning like usual, listening to music, singing along and all of a sudden my heart started racing, I was having trouble breathing, my hands were tingling, I got a headache,  and felt dizzy. Against my better judgment I continued to drive to school and after about 30 minutes of class realized I couldn't handle it. I was afraid to try and drive since I was dizzy so I ended up having to call my parents to come pick me up. At the time...